Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A Reminder to Myself

I have so many post ideas swirling around in my head right now but in all honesty, I am too tired to write them.

Dan and I are both in the thick of production on the current film we are working on and 60 hour work weeks have become the norm. It's hard to fully convey what that means, but I can tell you that each day is full of running around, craziness and intense deadlines which you leave at the end of each day feeling like you've just completed a triathlon and taken the SAT's all at once.

This is the life I chose. I went to film school for a reason.

I need to remind myself of those reasons, from time to time:

1) To be involved in something that moves people. I love how movies make people laugh, cry, feel scared, feel goofy, feel...anything. I don't think there is another art form out there that consistently moves people as much as film.

2) To do something different in life. I easily could have a desk job that is steady, consistent and much less daily insanity, but that is not what I wanted. When I worked at what we call a "real job" it just did not feel right. I needed creativity. I needed to be on my feet. I needed to be in film.

3) To work in a field that genuinely interests me. I love movies. I love seeing them, I love talking about them and I love analyzing them. French and South American films are some of my favorites, but cinema from around the world interests me. Since I was a young girl, I found film fascinating and I suppose, it is that love which is truly why I am here.

4) To meet interesting people. There is no denying that this industry attracts a vast array of people. I currently work with people from England, Iceland, Japan, France, Germany, Canada, Russia, Italy, Ireland and all across the US. I work with artists, architects, producers, accountants, puppet makers, costume designers, editors, directors, sculptors, animators, camera men, cinematographers and engineers. People around me have won Oscars, Emmys, BAFTAs, etc. It's amazing and I know that had I not gone into this field, there is no way I would be routinely surrounded by such an eclectic group.

So - there you have it. Or, rather, there I have it. Those are the big four: my reasons for taking this on. I guess as is the case with anything you love, it's not always easy.

I think I just needed to remind myself of that today, as exhaustion and feeling overwhelmed has started to take over. There is a reason I am here. There is a reason I knew I wanted to do this since I was about seven. And, at the end of the day, I have a lot to be thankful for.

Sorry for the drivel and thanks for listening ;)


  1. just repeat to yourself over and over and over...

  2. I can't agree more with Miss Caitlin. What you said was so true! Don't forget it. That's awesome that you followed your heart and decided to something more challenging but equally rewarding.

    Hope you have a wonderful day!

    That Girl in Pearls

  3. It's so wonderful to hear someone talk about a career that fulfills them!


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