While going through some old photos on my computer, I came across this one. I took it around late October - early November last year. Dan and I, who had both recently finished working on Coraline and were enjoying some hard-earned time off, decided one day to drive the 1.5 hours to the coast and just find a place to stay once we got there. We ended up finding this place that is more stuck in the 70's than the Brady Bunch - but it was right on the beach and this was the view. I took this from our room as the sun was setting and it still takes my breath away how beautiful nature can be - especially the ocean.
Dan and I have a thing for any ocean. There is just something about it - it is so calming and gives you a chance to take a deep breath and chill out. We often talk about having a place by the coast some day and it is a dream that I intend to keep on dreaming. Having spent my entire life so close to the ocean, I cannot imagine living in a place far from one.
I didn't know it at the time, but the day we left for this little get-away, Dan had gotten up early to buy my engagement ring. Within two months of this photo being taken, I would be in Paris with the man I love as he asked me to marry him. However, this was a difficult period for us as well. We knew Dan's work visa with the film production company we worked for was expiring soon and that he would have to leave in a month or so...and then what? It was a scary and painful time all the while being the best time of my entire life.
And now - here we are. One year later and so, so close to being back together - finally and permanently. We are so close now. He will be here soon - we are just waiting for our final approval.
I will admit that tonight was a tough night for me. I was sitting at home just missing Dan like crazy and I had a bit of a moment which produced sniffles and required tissue. I am so tired of being apart. I am so tired of filling out immigration forms. I am so tired of having to prove our relationship to nameless and faceless people who simply see us as a case number amongst thousands of others. I was feeling like, when is this EVER going to end - and then I found this picture and it brought it all home for me. I was able to stop and refocus and think about how far we have come. I was able to see and feel how close we are now. I remembered that no matter what, this too, shall pass.
I felt calm, took a deep breath, and chilled out - just like I was able to the day I took that photo. Not long now...