As I write this I am looking out a window at a brick row-house that shares a wall the house I am staying in. The brick is a mix-mash of shades of reds, greys and taupes. On top of the house is a chimney that has three little individual smokestacks sticking out of it. Even with the limited view of this house that I currently have, it is so delightfully English and makes me feel so lucky to be able to experience the real life London and not just the touristy bits.
While this time apart that Dan and I are reluctantly dealing with and accepting has been and is going to be hard, I cannot help but think, as I sit here in this London pad, that it is the most worthwhile and fulfilling thing that I have ever, ever embarked upon. My world has opened up and transformed itself more in the last two years than I ever could have imagined. I have been given the gift of Dan in my life and that is worth all of the waiting and lawyer visits and long plane rides and Immigration fees and that intense longing you feel when you are away from the one you love. It is all worth it. Every single second of it.
So, for now I am going to focus on the fact that I am sitting here in London, listening to chirping birds and anxiously waiting for my man to come home for lunch. Seeing him, if even for 10 seconds, is the best part of my day. This time next year, this will all be a distant memory. Now is the time to focus on the now. My time in London with my love. It is the most precious thing I could ask for and I never want to take it for granted.
Sorry for the cheesy/randomness/whatever of this post. My mind is kind of all over the place and this was my attempt to refocus on what is important. I hope you can all find some time today to focus on what is really important in your life - whatever that may be.